Oceans and graveyards

D ear sunshine, I'm not sure where I'm supposed to begin my letter, but thank you a million times over. How do I put my admiration for you into words? It would be insufficient regardless of how much I write to you because you are so exquisite. You are priceless, just like that grin. You have a captivating voice. You are magnificent in your own style. You are charming and affectionate yet you are also unique in your own way. You are someone from whom others should draw inspiration. The society we live in needs more people like you, and I am grateful to have found you! Every time we talk, you inspire me to believe in myself even more than anybody else could. You are an incredible inspiration for real, and you have an impact on me and many others. Of course, I'm speaking of a positive influence. You are the most amazing friend someone might have ever had. Thank you for proving it to me that people like you exist in this world. I'm sending you lots of love and good energy w

It's never about wanting something or not wanting it. It's always about, deserving it. Whatever it might be, if you are deservable of it then you'll get it eventually regardless of anything and everything.  If you didn't get what you tried hard for, then it's neither your fault nor anyone else's. It's just that you haven't yet given all of you into it. Although you thought you have given all of you But darling, there's so much more of you to give in and make it work. Don't lose hope, always have high hopes! Believe in yourself.  Believe the billions in the night sky. - Bhargavi aka Dolly| 15th Aug '22

You have the ability to make my heart skip a beat. You have the ability to make me blush. But falling in love with you isn't one of my strong suits. For me, it's the polar opposite; I don't fall, and I simply cannot fall for someone. Love terrifies me. To me, love is incomprehensible. I am deserving of love, but it is not for me. All I ever need and deserve is love,  All I ever give is love, Dear, but I don't do love. - Bhargavi aka Dolly // I don't do love.

Dear mumma, No words can ever describe what and how I feel about you. Yet I wish I could tell you in all the ways I can. Cheers to you for being my mom. Cheers to our endless fights. Yes endless indeed.  Happens every freakin time. You're special, but sometimes insanely crazy,  unforgettable and of course my fake sister figure. Mom you're truly an inspiration. You taught me to be been patient, not to cry and face my things on my own and whatnot. You've taught me a lot. You've taught me everything you could. And you know, I'm that kid, everyone wish they had.  But sadly, they ain't got me cause I'm yours always mommy. And yeah I know I can't thank you enough for everything you've done for me but anyways, I am thankful for everything you've done till date. I'm sorry for being rude sometimes to you. I'm sorry for not listening to you sometimes. I may not be a perfect daughter but I will definitely gonna be perfect, one day. Although I know I

Dear people, This is to the ones who have been texting me, "oh having fun", "enjoying ah", "tera sahi hai", "you're lucky", or whatever with a smirking emoji especially. I'm still not getting what you actually mean. Well, If you don't know then let me tell you, that literally gives me nothing but toxic vibes. As if, you don't want me to be happy,  having fun, or whatever I'm doing. You could've texted me something like "glad that you're having fun, "glad that you're happy" or something like that, ofcourse few did text me that way but the rest whoever texted me, you guys taking me back to my overthinking phase.  Bruh, please! I'm done with that phase. I didn't comeback just like that. This time, I'm not letting anyone F with my vibe and mood.  If you don't know, I'm not the same Bhargavi which you've known me for all these years.  I comeback stronger than I was and  stronger th

You were the glided light in her world full of darkness.  In your presence, she was happy. She is happy even in your absence but she's no more that happy lil kid who used to smile from bottom of her heart.  Though she smiles 24/7 but no more from bottom of her heart.  She tried, she is hurt, she cried, she killed herself not physically but mentally. She tired to forget you but unfortunately you become the one who's always on her mind. She wished for you to come back,  She wished for love her life to come back,  Yes, it's you.  You're the love of her life.  Little did she knew,  You're gone and you ain't coming back,  That you're gone forever. 

Ek din Jab aapko Ache din aaye  Toh purane  Dino ko  Ek baar yaad  Zarur karna Kyu? Kyu ki  Yahi woh din Hote hai joh Aapko ache din  Aane ki umeed dete hai Yahi woh din hai Joh aapko Musibat ka  Samna karna  Sikhata hai Jeene ka  Sahi matlab  Batate hai Aur jab aap  Musibat mei  Jeena sikh jate ho  Tabhi se ache din  Shuru ho jate hai  Isilye ache din  Aane par  Purane din ko  Ek baar din me  Yaad karna  Aur isse  Bhul mat jaana. - Bhargavi aka Dolly | oceansandgraveyards Ps: I've written this in 2018  Also, ignore grammatical mistakes, if any.  image credits: pinterest

Dear Nanna(dad), Wow, it's been almost 6 years since you left me and this universe. There are no words to describe my immense love for you. Every day without you has been hard, but on this day especially, I can't help but think how much I wish you were here with me. You were the glided light in my world full of darkness. In your presence, I was happy. I'm happy even in your absence but I'm no more that happy little kid who used to smile from bottom of her heart. Though I smile 24/7 for no reason, but no more from bottom of my heart. I'm tired and hurt, I cried, I cried until my tears stopped. I tried to kill myself not physically but mentally. I tried to forget you but unfortunately you become the one who's always on my mind. I think about you and miss you through each day that passes. Some days are really difficult and I'm overwhelmed with sadness. Other days are good, and I think about all of our beautiful memories. I miss going out with you. Just you and

Most of the time  You feel lonely Then they come from Nowhere but like  A fantasy to make You feel special  To let you know  That you aren't alone They are with you. Indeed they'll be With you  Until they find  Someone new. People make promises  As if they are good  At keeping them Little did they know  They are just trying  To be pro  At breaking them. At first they  Break the promises  They made  Then they break Your heart saying The harsh words As if you mean Nothing to them. Oh honey, c'mon This world doesn't Give a damn about you Don't trust everyone You meet. //Everyone hurts sometimes Everyone hurts someday.//  - Bhargavi Pulamarasetti |  19th September 2020 Ps: lines in // are from the song memories by Maroon 5

She used to start her day  with tears in her eyes  waking up to the harsh reality  that you're no more in her life.  But now she start her day with a smile  'Cause darling,  In life there's much more to go through.  If she stuck there  Then what about her future When you left, She learnt so much.  She become mature and  Now she knows that Nobody's going to stay forever.  Not every person  Hold your hands  While crossing the road,  Not every person was loved  By their loved one's,  Not every person got  Someone to handle their  Mood swings,  Not every person can  Move on easily.  So darling,  From waking up with tears  To waking up with smile  She finally moved on. 

Picture source - Pinterest Are you who you want to be Or you are just trying to be the one  The society wants? Are you trying to fit in this society Or do you feel you're already fit in this society? Are you thinking what this society Going to say if you do what you want? Or else you just don't give a damn about it? Are you scared of wearing short dresses  Or you don't care what they going to think and say about you? Are you scared of going out with your opposite gender friends because they'd ship and talk behind your back Or you don't care what they're going to say, 'cause you know what you are? Do you still care about the marks just because what this society would think, Or you don't care about them and you just care about your self satisfaction? Do you feel insecure while talking to someone, Or you feel better while talking to whosoever it might be? Do you think if you tell the truth then it'd hurt them so you end up lying, Or you just

It's 02:00am in clock She's crying so badly Suddenly she heard someone whispering, It's none other than her inner voice. "Hey darling, why do you even cry For the people who doesn't even care about you? Do you really think they'd care if you cry? Don't cry honey, nobody cares about you, other than you. Just take good care about yourself and love yourself. Nobody needs you as much as you does. Nobody would love you as much as you can do. Self love and self care is must. Heal yourself, sweetie! We are living in a society where  When someone is drowning in water and letting a hand up asking for help, Somebody would rather reach out their hands to give a high five and leave. We are living in a society where Somebody would judge you by looks even though they doesn't know who you are. We are living in a society where People would ship you with whoever you talk. They might be someone whom you call brother/sister but they doesn't care about it A

Dear stranger, This post is dedicated to you.  Yes, you! You, the one who thinks mental health is nothing but a stigma. You, the one who thinks marks are more important than your children's mental health and peace. I always wanted to write and talk about this now here I am. I hope you read it till the end.  Love and light, A stranger (who wants to bring a change in people's mindset) Image source - pinterest I don't really understand why do people only care about marks? Well, well, well, indeed marks are important but not more than the childs mental health and peace.  Marks are nothing when it compared to mental health and peace. You really don't know what the other person right in front of you is going through. They may seem fine but they might be going through a really hard phase where nobody could understand the things they're going through. Image source - pinterest You might think, they're just kids and what problems they might have. B

The friendships you thought would last a lifetime could fizzle out. Image source - Pinterest Just imagine that you became so close to a person and having all those good times with that person. All of the sudden they started to act weird. I wish to write this story which is not about someone who's just a best friend but more like a sister. Though it just started a year ago, we become so close or maybe I was the one who became so attached that I used share everything with her. It all started in the month of October 2018 when I was in 10th grade and joined in the same tuition (Gyan Sagar academy a.k.a GSA) in which my brother Anurag was studying. Though he was my classmate from third grade, but I grew up calling him brother and I used treat him like my own brother. Well, that was the one of the main reason why my mom agreed when I told her that i wanted to join in tuition. So that she can stay tension free, 'cause he'll be there as well. It was 12th of October and I

 Image s  source - pinterest  Wish I could write this story which is not about someone who's just a father, but her everything. Never thought it'd be the last time she'd see him. So that thing hurts a lot, when you can't see another person again.  That was the time when she saw her dad for one last time.  Her dad was dying in front of her, she couldn't do nothing but watching him just like that while her mom was sitting beside him and sobbing while the doctor was checking him. She was still believing her instincts that he'd be alright soon. But deep down she's scared as well that what if her nightmare she had about a week ago, would become true. Though it wasn't really a nightmare but then she had a dream in which she saw her dad passed away. That wasn't the first time she had dream in which someone has passed. She had the same dream 10 days before when her grandma has passed in November 2012. But that was kinda different 'cause she had t